Saturday, January 9, 2010
One of the things I promised to do for myself this year is to start a journal of self discovery and change. Since we are coming up on carnival season, I thought a masquerade ball theme would make the perfect first journal writing prompt. We all wear masks in one form or another but tonight I can be anyone I want to be. So, who will I become? Will I choose to play it safe and blend in with the crowd as I have always done before?
Or, will I begin to break old patterns? Will I take a chance and allow myself the freedom to be who I really am, to be the person I always knew I was or wanted to be? I've kept that vulnerable girl in me hidden away for far too long, afraid of being hurt. No one would know it was me. From behind the safety of my mask, I can be anyone I want to be.
I feel my fear dissolve it's grip as I begin to make new choices. With each tiny step I move toward the changes I have always wanted to make but never knew exactly how. I know that I am safe. I trust the process of life to support and guide me. I water with love and feed with care, that little child within, until she blooms like the bright shining, magnificent individual she always was. I can toss the masks, they serve me no longer. I am free to let myself stand above the crowd, free to be myself at last.
What masks do you wear and why? What are you most afraid of? What would happen if you were not afraid? I invite you to ponder and create a carnvial journal page to explore. I also invite you to join me for the Bal Masqe on February 13th. Be sure to visit the lovely Beverly of How Sweet the Sound for more Pink Saturday goodies!